pointless.

if it's worth having, it's worth the pain.

someone told me this today.

kinda got me thinking. there is some truth in what he said.

i guess we're just too afraid of pain. too busy trying to run away from it.




- okay this is a pointless entry. just something that got me thinking much, but not typing much.

hope.

~the worst thing you could ever lose is hope~

i read that somewhere. a couple of years ago. back in college.

but then again, i don't get it. why do we hope?

is it supposed to be some form of motivation?
not really. that's desire, want, need, etcetera etcetera.. but not hope.

is it supposed to be some sort of consolation?
perhaps. something to make you believe that things will and can be better (well it is usually positive, right?). something to look forward to.

whether you like it or not, i guess in one way or another, hope becomes something you believe in. i mean, when you hope, you believe. even when there aren't any proof or evidence or whatever, you still believe. just because you hope.

(am i making sense?)

what happens when things turn out the opposite way?
you hope it will eventually change.

what happens when everything just shows that things will never be the way you want them to be?
you hope you're wrong.

what happens when there is no hope?
you hope for a miracle.

what happens when your hope goes down the drain?
you still hope!

why? why? why?

we just can't live without hoping, can we? no matter how many times you fall, you'd still have some hope, or at least hope there's hope. no matter how little.

and you fall again. and you slowly stand up and build hope again, or people around you start giving you hope. then you fall. again. and start hoping it doesn't happen again. but guess what, it does.

foolish, aren't we?

wouldn't it be easier if we don't hope? having no expectations. never having to risk being disappointed. how do we do that? how do we stop being a fool?











the worst thing you could ever lose is hope???
i say the worst thing you could never lose is hope.


i don't see a chance. i don't see a ray of hope. i see only darkness.
why am i still standing here hoping?

funny :)

it's funny how people can act like complete angels in front of you,
but when you're not looking, they step all over you and spit on you.

it's funny how they act like they care,
but actually treat you like shit without you even realizing.

it's funny how they make you think you're someone,
but put you so low you can't find yourself.

it's funny how terribly they hate you,
but pretend like everything is great.

it's funny how they can say they love you,
but betray and stab you with a million knives in the most unthinkable way.

haha.

it's so funny how they can act so fucking well without any form of training!
ah...such wonderful talent... :)

you deserve a standing ovation.
*claps* :)

i wouldn't even call you a bitch. that word is way too nice to be used on you.

UPDATE!!!

ok not a real update actually... just saying that i have absolutely no time to update this shyt.

hopefully things aill change after i get a laptop. :D which is soon (i hope)

CIAO!!