When a hard disk stole 5 years of my life.

My hard disk crashed. So someone from Dell came over to replace it with a new one. Yea it's good that I have a functioning laptop now but what's horrible is that everything in the hard disk is now gone.

No I don't care so much about the movies, videos, songs, not even my lecture notes and assignments. I'm devastated because all my photos are gone. ALL of them. Pictures I've taken since I was 17. Yes ALL of them.

You'd probably call me stupid for not having a backup copy. But here's the thing, I don't actually store my pictures in my laptop. It's just there because I was doing some sorting and transferring, so it was suppose to be temporary.

And then it crashed.

Yes I shouldn't be whining so much about a bunch of lost data. But pictures are memories. Every picture has a story. Even the littlest things can be remembered because of pictures. Occasions, places, and most importantly, people. Every time you want to relive something you look at pictures.

I think you know what I mean. So yea, they're all gone. I've got nothing to look back upon.

I know it sounds silly but it really feels as though I did not exist for the past 5 years. That's right, I feel like I've lost 5 years of my life.

You know you're crazy when...

> You feel restless, you can't sit still.

> You put on your headphones and blast the same song over and over again even when your ears start to hurt.

> You feel like you need a shower, 2 seconds after you've had a shower.

> You keep staring at the same page on your computer, and once in a while you hit the refresh button.



A friend once said to me, "It's never easy knowing you've been replaced".
He's absolutely right.
I guess we're all the same. We all want to be special, we all want to matter, we all want to be needed. Nobody likes to feel unimportant and replaceable, just like an old toothbrush you can throw out anytime to get a shiny new one.