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what i need in my life right now more than anything:



support.



moral support, emotional support, whatever. i need the support that i don't think i'm getting. the support that i used to have to get me through tough times.



family - miles away from me
bestfriends - away from me too
person i used to be able to turn to - acts like we're strangers
God - if only He could talk to me back
new friends - well it's just not the same




medic is tough shit. and i thought there's nothing worst than STPM. o_O

why am i here again?

what do you look for?

we know there some things we need and want in life.

we look for it. search everywhere we could.

but at times you just realize you don't even know exactly what you're looking for. you want to feel complete. you go around blindly groping in the dark hoping to miracalously find that thing you're looking for. maybe you wouldn't, but maybe you would.

but how do you know if you've found it? how do you know if you haven't? how do you know if it's something you missed? how do you know if it's something you had all along? how do you know if you weren't meant to find it at all?

sometimes you feel you've found it, and suddenly it's gone. and you start asking yourself if that's what you're looking for. maybe it wasn't. but perhaps it really was. perhaps.

if it feels right, shouldn't it be right? if it's right, shouldn't it be yours?

6 signs shanti is losing her mind:

1. i feel restless. i can't sit still. my mouth wouldn't stop mumbling.

2. i spent 3 hours staring at one page of notes and still couldn't understand a thing.

3. i've been hungry. like really hungry. the whole day. but i ate tonns of food. *glances at emtpy packets of biscuits*

4. i feel like going for a jog outside. it's 8:06pm by the way. *looks outside*

5. i've been ripping off my hair. *stares at hair in the dustbin*

6. i've been listening to the same cd countless times. more than 10 times i'm sure.







i hate exams i hate exams i hate exams i hate exams i hate exams i hate exams