people in love.

why do i have to be surrounded by couples in love?


here's the thing, my roommate just got into a relationship like 2 days ago. yea and the guy's from our campus too. so of course, soon i'll i get to 'feast' my eyes with sights i do not wish to see.

my other roommate is also in a relationship. it just started too, not long ago. and yes, the guy's from our campus too. oh this is the guy i mentioned in my previous entry (v-day).

one of my closest girl-friends here is also with a guy from campus, who happens to be my good friend too. which means.......... i'm stuck with the two of them most of the time, being a lamp-post, shining ever so brightly. half the time wishing i was blind so that i don't have to see them running their hands on each other, or necking in the middle of kb mall, or nibbling on each other's ears, or...well, you get the picture. the other half of the time i wish i was deaf so i don't have to listen to her talking bout everything he says or does, bout everything I don't have.





i don't have anything against people in love.
and i'm not being selfish, i am happy for you guys, i really am.

but it's not my fault that part of me still gets all bitter,
it's not my fault that i feel the need to get away from you,
it's not my fault that i don't get excited over your excitement,
it's not my fault that i hate seeing you guys kiss,
it's not my fault that i don't give a damn bout the guys you keep suggesting to me,
it's not my fault if i cry, it's not my fault that i haven't healed.


why am i lost in a circle of people in love?