the question.

"what happened between you guys?"


i haven't been asked this question for quite some time.
half a year ago was a different story, i keep getting bombarded with the question, wherever i go. the question that i tried to avoid, the question that i had no answer to.


today, someone decides to ask me the question.


again, i felt that familiar funny feeling in my stomach, like i was gonna throw up; that familiar heavy feeling in my heart, like all the life was sucked out from my body; the familiar sharp feeling around my nose and eyes, i know what to expect.





"what happened between you guys?"


i don't have the answer to that.
i searched, but never found it.
many times i thought i finally have the answer, but the question never fails to come back to haunt me.
till today, i found no answer.





"what happened between you guys?"


i asked myself a million times, i asked him, i asked God, i asked everyone.
who else do i ask?




"what happened between you guys?"


I DON'T FUCKIN' KNOW, DAMMIT!
I DON'T KNOW!!!