let.me.WHINE.

i hate whining. i hate it when people get too whiney.

but tonight i don't care. i'm gonna whine all i want here. i'm gonna be one of those painfully annoying whiney people. i don't freakin care.

it's acceptable when life slaps you right on your face once, twice is still okay too. but when it decides to not only slap you a million times till your face turns blue, but also kick and punch and burn you till every inch of your body screams in agony and you're left feeling numb, you have all the right in the universe to whine.

i am not weak. i have shone like the king of the world, and fallen to the deepest darkest pits, and worked my way up all over again. i have tasted success. and i have had failures. which i am never too afraid to climb out of. but there comes a point when your strength goes missing and no matter how hard you try, you can't seem to find it. i am not weak, but at this moment in time, i am not strong either. so let me whine.

working so bloody hard on something, only to be shot in the head with failure. holding on so strongly for so long, only to realize nobody is going to be there to grab your hand and pull you up. being able to trust and build a bond, only to be abandoned and forgotten within seconds. wanting, wishing, praying, hoping so badly, only to see that one thing in someone else's hands. having to fight an unfair fight, and to do it alone. so let me whine.

i feel wronged. i feel betrayed. i feel cheated. i feel mistreated. i feel abandoned. so let me freakin whine.