-back.

And so I'm back, after half a year. How things have changed... or not.
Sometimes we can never know if change is really for the better. More reasons to smile, at the same time, more reasons to cry. You say hello to something, at the same time, you say goodbye to something else. For the better? And you wonder.

Some goodbyes were probably not even real goodbyes. And you realize that although you've always thought somethings are long gone, no longer there, their shadow appears when you least expect it. Gone, or just hiding?

And there'll be times when you feel complete, but as soon as you close your eyes for a moment, a sense of emptiness drowns you. It's like having so many good puzzle pieces, more than you would ever need, but none to fill that last spot. Wonderfully complete, yet still incomplete.

And you look back and wonder what could've been. If you had stayed and waited at square one for just a little longer, how different would things be? Or would you have been left there standing at the same spot forever? Was the wait not long enough? Who's to know anyway.

And you'd be surprised as to how one can call you their friend one minute, and the next minute easily turn around and label you the enemy. Little things may have changed from time to time, but does that really have to burn everything else?




Nonetheless, for all that I have with me right here and right now, no matter how much or how little they may seem, no matter how perfect or imperfect they may be, I thank You.